...hi there, You :)
So. How's everyone doing? I've caught up on some of you and actually added a guy to the repertoire just because he's, uh, interesting. Hey, I'm sticking with that word no matter how nekkid he gets, iight? I have to say, it is really terrific to see what you've all been doing! Don't think that during the time I've been away that I've forgotten you!! I've had a computer blow up and then took internet away from the kids for...oh...8 months but you have been on my mind. The kids found out that we can live without the net! That made everything worth it! They actually don't mind when I drag them to a Civil War living history or take them to a museum or on a hike into The Wild. Well, it's not really 'the wild'. More like the Semi-Wild where there are homes within a 10 mile radius. They even come up with things to do and places to go sometimes! My son took up Lacrosse so that's cool. He's pretty good and way tougher than I would have guessed. You know what that means? He CAN carry the trash to the curb! Oh yeah, I got em now!
Anyway. Lots and yet not much has been going on. Where to start? Dr E, you were right. The last time we spoke, I was on my way to Sunbury, PA where The Hottie lives. I was caught on the fact that his remarried ex wife was totally psychotic and stalking me. Phone calls, following me, hacking my computer (hence the blow up) and then she was actually touching items of mine and kept breaking into my car... or had someone else break into it. So, The Hottie didn't want to hear about it and got angry that it bothered me so much and that obviously degraded our relationship. Then she hacked his Verizon account and they were going to press charges and he finally got pissed. Over 9 months of this crap until he gets mad. I really cared about him, still do. He's an amazing father and totally hot in the sack but person to person, he's just not the one. He made me feel like he was protecting her most of the time. Not me. It's just not how I want to be with someone. I don't mean I want somebody to fly off the handle and bust someone up but just talk to me and hold me and make sure I'm okay. Make sure I know that you're there for me. I didn't know that. I'm looking for something different, better.
One time, years and years ago, I was home with my babies. 3 little ones. I babysat other kids and made good money. My husband (now ex) didn't like me being home. He was mad that I got to sit around with the kids and play all day. Hello! Any single mommies know how you get to sit around with 3 of your own and avg 5 of other peoples kids? I'd love to figure that out. Plus, my house was clean. Anyway. He told me to go back to work so I was looking for a job. I went on about 4 or 5 interviews and just wasn't happy with what I was finding. They all offered me but ugh, I did not want to be back at a job that was micro managing again. I worked for PA Blue Shield in the GBU for 5 years and they wanted me to hang a flag up when I had to go to the bathroom. Then, if you were gone more than 2 minutes, they came to look for you. No thank you. The hub asked why did I think I'm so special to deserve a great job. I asked why he thought I wasn't. The beginning of the end. Anyway, since then, I just don't throw in the towel. I've been a department manager, a director, a COO and owned my own company. I sold my co last summer for a tidy profit and now have something at the patent office. I'm not sure what I'll do with it when it's ready but everything in the work life is good. I'm going to go to work for someone else real soon for a little while just because working alone all the time isn't for me either. Okay.... so where was I? I'm just rambling now!
Anyway, The Hottie. He is a nice person. I'd like to think we're friends. He recently told me that he wants me to tag in on a 3some with his new gf. He calls a lot even though we broke up in Sept, 07. (I don't answer 80% of the time) I asked him why and what does his gf think. He says she's in (yeah, I bet!) and he said he's told her how excellent I am intimately. Apparantly she can't get him off if she's on top or doing any sort of oral. He's suggested she learn from me. Nice work, dumbass. She's pissed and wants me to come so she can see for herself who I am. And cut me. Oh I know that is a bad situation. I wouldn't do it, or anything sexually, with him anymore. I know I miss his kids and I've gotten e-mails and letters that tell me what they're up to and how they miss me. My kids miss him and his kids too. We're all okay though.
Well, that was pretty personal!
Since then, on the guy scope, I've dated mostly younger guys. I got close to a 34 year old and found out he was a functional alcoholic. Not fun. Not functional in the bedroom. He did tell me that I could 'get some' outside the relationship so long as I came home. I told him if I do that, I'm just going to be with that person. Dumped him. Went out with a couple of other younger men and they were all very nice but not very interesting. I've been kind of dating this guy from NC and moving here for work. Now, he is super sweet! Smart. Interesting. A red head, which I never thought I'd think was cute but he's so funny that he's pretty adorable. Thing there is, well, he's 29. Just too young. His birthday is a week after mine and I'll be 42 before he's 30. I know, it's just a number, etc. I could still have babies and wouldn't mind if it's Mr. Right and he says he doesn't want a baby but come on. I'm thinking nah. Just friends is better there. Where are the guys that are my age and not falling apart?? They all (the ones that aren't married) just want to watch tv, sleep and take their maintenance meds. Seriously.
Alright, so this fall, in Sept, I'm going to The Upper Gauly for a white water rafting adventure. I've only been to Jim Thorpe and it's time for the big stuff. Anyone want to join me? It's supposed to be the best white water in the US. When they let loose the dam, it's all class 5. Look it up! Anyone that wants to come along, more than welcome! It'll be about 12 of us, mostly my crazy cousins (I'm the oldest) and some friends. Hotel or cabin is your choice. The Rivermen is the tour company we'll be with.
Oh! It's getting late and I have 25 people coming tomorrow for our delayed Easter Dinner. I have to get a few things cleaned up. My oldest leaves tonight for Alabama where she'll do her 2 weeks for the Army National Guard. She's going active Army in a few weeks and will be going to Italy for 2 years. She also had her own place but moved back home a couple weeks ago so she could be with us before she heads out. I wanted to tell you all about this stuff today but it looks like it's going to have to be... Sunday maybe? Or Monday night? I will catch you up on the monkeys!!
I'm sorry I have to run and I'm sorry I didn't go over this to clean it up and make it purty. I'll be baaaack!!! MWAH!
posted by dizulli @ 3/28/2008 12:33:00 PM
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